“Do not be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace that surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
Panic and anxiety have never been useful. Yet, I continue to use them as my guides. Sometimes I can remember to take a deep breath and proceed with unclouded thinking to solve the problem at hand. But if I am overwhelmed, then I go to that autopilot response of fight or flight. I believe my anxiety comes from not feeling prepared for that unknown event, actually looking like a fool is more like it. One of my biggest anxiety triggers is a visit to the dentist. I would rather give birth to my daughter at her current age (7 y.o.), then get a root canal. I am not sure if it is the claustrophobic feeling of lying still and two people in my face and then putting dental instruments in my mouth, the smells or drilling noises or the visit will equal that of pain, time and money, lots of money. Teeth cleaning are bearable until I hear, “uh, this tooth appears to have a problem, let’s have the doctor come check it out further”. Cue panic attack.
I say the following things in my head, usually in this order…a prayer for the miraculous. I tell myself people suffer greater than this, living in a war torn country, suffering through cancer treatments and yet they seem happy…so snap out of it! Or I can buy that thing I wanted, if I just don’t run out of their office screaming amd crying. The Lord does not want His children to feel this when they are troubled. The Bible tells us countless times, about not letting our hearts be troubled when you are afraid, put your trust in Him.
I remember that I have a choice in this, to hear the dentist explanation and options for treatment and believe the Lord will provide the finances, heal the pain and will cover me with His peace. This is all temporary. Every uncomfortable, fleeting moment like a dental treatment, is temporary. This to shall pass…breathe in and out. This works every time I am faced with life’s complications, too bad I choose the wrong way and I look like that fool with a tear stained face saying, “Why me, again?” trying to get out of the chair. (And yes, I use a toothbrush and floss.)
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you that you are fighting for me. Help me to remain calm in all situations, submit my ways and trust your ways instead. Please remind me that you are BIGGER than all of our problems put together and that you always have the best remedy, even if we do not like it. Lord, I give to you all the traumas I have experienced in my life to cause me such fear. Restore them with your peace and tranquilty. Let my mess become your greater message.
In your precious name, Amen!